Today, I took a big step, and I took back a little of my control. I shaved my head, it was coming out anyway, thinning in places it shouldn't have just aggravating and embarrassing me, So I got me a mach 5 razor and starting going to town besides a few tiny skirmishes with little bloodshed overall it went very well. I do believe when I first picked up that orange and brown plastic razor with my damp hands and felt in flex in my hands, For the first time in Sunk in, Holy Shit, I have cancer. WTF, Well i worked past it and slowly line by line removed the hair that was left, or was really thinning at this point.. Up and Down Line by line around the head and then did Left to the Right Line by line. Not that i had much hair to begin with but Might as be a perfectionist at least on this..Here is a snap shot.
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| Those are not catapilers, i still have my eyebrows left thank god. |
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This is something i will have to chalk it up to something new, But Lets see how it grows out. And for people reading this blog who are dealing with lymphoma, when you do this it give you an amazing sense of power, I basically was telling the cancer to stfu , and Im not waiting for you to take my hair, Ill do it when I want..
But on another note, this action had made it actually sink in that I am very Ill. and I can;t out that into words, YET, but I will.
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Oh honey...reading this brought me to tears.
ReplyDeleteYou will get through this. I know you will! xoxo