Rapunzel Rapunzel are those extensions? if not let your hair down.

Sorry guys its been such a long time since i blogged. Ive been really busy, I went home for a little while and visited work, didnt feel like home though felt different, hung out with some friends. loved it! The only think chemo wise is thats killing me is that im constantly tired, take alotta naps, no energy sometimes, although when i see someones name on my phone god, it gets my heart rushing.  Like a little kid. Im nervous for chemo next friday but, that always makes me nervous.  So keep pushing through.  I'm to a point that it sunk it that I know i have cancer(took some time didnt it) now I am taking every opportunity, every gift as a new thing, as a new price of life.

But living is a constant reminder of cancer, and vice versa, every time I put my hand through my hair haha, i mean on my bald head it reminds me, but also tells me that things gets better have been getting better and will continue to do so.

I'm more optimistic now then I have been before, more full of joy, and full of love because of this experiance, its quite life changing. 

On the other hand, my next post will explain the bone marrow biospy and aspiration i had in the past, it will explain exactly whats happened and how it felt because i did get a lot of questions about that.  and please if you have any questions yourself, please mail me or post Id be happy to answer.  Better knowing then not ya know!!

My Friday. With Videos

Well today is sunday, sorry for the long delay in posting but but after noticing some visits i almost decided not to post again, probably enjoying my pain, but this is not about that, this is about helping other people and in the process helping myself.

They first start out with the IV of  Saline basically salt water, a whole liter, but that i didnt take a video of , but you can use you imagination. 










Then they start with the retux drip, this is the chemo that takes hours very slow drip, very annoying.  Now some peoples chemo takes like a total of 1 hour 2 hours 3 hours, but that depends on the cancer, mine takes 6 or 7 so its an all day event and kicks your ass for the following few days. Here is that video,(LOL the syfy channel was in the back ground, at the end you can hear star trek them playing lol. as i posted on fb I was hoping that spock, or atleast kahn could cure me, they didnt!) BTW Sorry its upside down, lol damn tablet.

Next is the Pushes.  a Push I guess is a term that some special person made up, but it makes sense , they are huge syringes and get pushed in, doxorubicin which is red and turns your pee a short of rainbow(please dont mention the skittles commercial haha) which there are 4 or 5 (sorry Chemo Brain) and Vindocrisitne which is clear, and are only one, I only did a small video of this, you can see the redness go up the IV into my arm, they go real slow because it can get on the skin and go right through it and cause like a huge burn and break the vein which fucks up the inside of your arm, its kinda scary that your veins can handle it.  But I only did the video of a small portion of Dox so people have an idea what a push is.

Then the final part of the out patient chemo is another iv drip, no video and i forget the name because i was passed out by then, rough day,

Then the final part of this specific chemo is prednasone tablets, wich are steriods and taken for the 5 days of the chemo, it helps you from crashing, it keeps you from sleeping and keeps you angry lol. but it my case it doesnt have to work to hard for that.

Basically thats rchop in a nutshell and people go through this all the time, Im sorry for not getting videos of all the drugs but its not a overall joyful experience and is quite taxing on the body.